December was a hard month. My wife has barely spoken to me. When I try to communicate with her, she shuts me down prefering instead to email her feelings to me.
Seriously…email…
She tells me that she is not happy with what her life has become and that she doesn’t feel our home is a happy one. She’s right, it’s been a year filled with more stress than I’ve ever known, and we’ve both handled it badly.
But now it’s time to change that. We need to work together, communicate, and take control of our lives again.
Last night was not good. We “celebrated” New Years on East Coast time rather than our own, mainly so that we could get our daughter to bed. For her, schedule is very important. Staying up too late or not getting enough sleep causes her a lot of hardship. Still, when the clock struck, it was obvious that my wife did not want to celebrate with the traditional NYE kiss. I laid in bed last night with such a pain in my heart, it was almost too much.
Note: This entry was written after the fact.